When Disciples Doubt
Rev. Mike Hearon
Following Jesus is a call to believe the gospel in the most vulnerable places in our lives. Believing the gospel (acknowledging God’s way is right) requires ruthless trust. To believe, I must know his strength and his tenderness.
THESE INWARD TRIALS—J.I. PACKER
How does God in grace prosecute its purpose to restore man’s relationship with God? Not by shielding us from assault by the world, the flesh and the devil, nor by shielding us from troubles created by our own temperament and psychology; but rather exposing us to all these things, so as to overwhelm us with a sense of our own inadequacy, and to drive us to cling to Him more closely.
This is the ultimate reason, from our standpoint, why God fills our lives with troubles and perplexities of one sort or the other—it is to ensure that we shall learn to hold Him fast. The reason why the Bible spends so much of its time reiterating that God is a strong rock, a firm defense, and a sure refuge and help for the weak, it is that God spends so much of His time bringing home to us that we are weak, both mentally and morally, and dare not trust ourselves to find, or to follow, the right road. God wants us to feel that our way through life is rough and perplexing, so that we may learning thankfully to lean on Him. Therefore he takes steps to drive us out of self-confidence to trust in Himself and to learn to truly “wait on the Lord”.
Also, read this article by Joni Eareckson Tada, Reflections on the 50th Anniversary of My Diving Accident.